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Sunday, January 6th, 2008
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so ok i have been contimplating the notion that i should stop thinking about every one else and start thing about my self i know that sound bad but i feel that this way i wil be getting what i want and i also believe that i will be much happier as a person this way as well... but now the hard part
what to give up
being nice
not fucing with girls heads
not settling for a while i mean if a special someone come along ill waite but i dk
what else could i change...\\ not giving money out to every one who asked for it... be more of an asshole....
i know i could make more changes to my personality to make me feel beter but i dont know if i really can change
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Friday, January 4th, 2008
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wow so 2007 was like lame but at the same time good i found out something about ppl i thought was funy i found ou some not so good things i miss all my friends and i want every one to come vist me... the end?
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Saturday, July 21st, 2007
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ok so i made it some what sain 26n hours straight and its beaustiful and amazong u should all be here i miss u all
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What is the hardest thing for any one to do in their life? Move away from their home town. Move out on their own. Grow up. Leave every one and every thing behind that they care about. Try not to be sad about leaving. Try to be strong. Live up to their expiations. Well ladies and gentle men I have 5 days till I do all that. I know that may be so for all of you but you in my mind I’m just another blip on the radar screen. I know that I’m one guy that had many friends and I cared for all of you. For two years I will be gone and all I want you to do is keep your head up keep the hair out of your eyes, don’t cry don’t be sad don’t be angry be happy that one soul has been saved from damnation that is called MN. Don’t get me wrong I love this place all the people all the things I have done and experienced. The death of a friend, drinking at the stable with friends and family. Getting high down by the river and letting all my worries flow like the water to another place another time. Sitting by a camp fire signing sons teaching how to save a life and have the life of a king nothing surrounding me besides a calm lake beautiful people and my friends. Having a job working with kids making stupid mistakes being forgotten and remembered all n the same week. Making a difference in some ones life no matter how unimportant it was to me they learned something. Crying about small things and yet staring death in the face and laughing MN has been so good to me. I will never forget you no matter how far I travel you are my home. To every one who reads this remember if you miss me just look to the stars or the moon I see them too. I’m not trying to be cocky I’m trying to put closure on leaving and everything I will miss. Why do people cry when you leave and come back? I always wonder. My family goes out to all the people I love AL, Luke, Jason, Beth, Cory, Kelly, Jesi, yare, kooks, AC, rob, Claire, Maggie, Sally, Nikki, Genna, Mel, Mandi, Ashley, Carley, Angie, Morgan, Linzy, Justin, john, Ryan “scode”, Emily, Laura, Amanda, Bach, Bobbi, brad, Dan, Sam, Kyle, Will, Levi, Joshie poo; the list goes on and on but you all have made me fell even though I haven’t had the greatest family relationship u all have been their and when ever you want call me I have a great ear to listen and my phone is always on. I leave you tonight with this keep the hair out of your eyes, keep your head up and look to the skies i"m always looking back. I miss all of you
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Tuesday, February 27th, 2007
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well to let you all know i have cut my hair * pic yet to come * it was fun wall it lasted i just couldnt deal with all the shit i was getting at home for looking dirty every day and "not cleaning up". I wish i had a relationship like other staff have with eric unlike them i can never talk to him because the last time i did he talked to my mom and i really dislike my parents. I have done some really stupid things and i eccept my punishment. sorry for those i put in harms way just to be dumb. i have bascily lost my job my home and the respect of my boss. if any one misses me at the garage i will be back to my usual self in june or what ever but i might have no time for that crap. but i sitll feel liike shit and im sorry. now im going to go lay under a rock and die thnx
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Thursday, February 1st, 2007
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Attention THE GARAGE family,
THE GARAGE needs your help!
Phase II, the addition of a gym, art studio, and recording studio has been delayed due to budget constraints. The City of Burnsville Mayor Elizabeth B. Kautz and the City Council (big supporters of THE GARAGE) delayed the expansion of THE GARAGE because the State has not allocated the million dollars that is due to the City of Burnsville from the Market Value Homestead Credit.
Please contact our governor, and local representatives soon and often:
“Dear (representative’s name),
I would like to request the State of Minnesota allocate the million dollars that is due the City of Burnsville from the Market Value Homestead Credit. With this money, the City of Burnsville will be able to move forward on stalled projects, such as the expansion of THE GARAGE. THE GARAGE is a community center that offers music, art, and after school programs for hundreds of Minnesota youth each week.
Sincerely,
(your name)
(your address)”
Please Contact
Governor Pawlenty
Telephone: (651) 296-3391
Toll Free: (800) 657-3717
E-mail: tim.pawlenty@state.mn.us
District 40A (Burnsville area) State Representative Will Morgan
E-mail: rep.will.morgan@house.mn
District 40 (Burnsville area) State Senator John Doll
E-mail: sen.john.doll@senate.mn
Also, if you are not from Burnsville, please go to http://geo.commissions.leg.state.mn.us/districts/start.html and type your address to find your representatives and contact them. It is important State representatives know THE GARAGE community includes more than just Burnsville residents.
THANK YOU!
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al right today is the day i leave at 8:30 pm i will nolonger be inbrunsville and will be inroute to ponsford MN i hope you all have a good summer and i will give you details on what happens in mine
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| Subject: | life |
| Time: | 10:41 pm. |
| Mood: |  content. | | Music: | conan o brian. |
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you know i never really thought about it but life is all about freedom and having it is one thing but expressing it is another. i recently found a young female that was donw on her luck.
her relationshiops have gone sour with her ex and now was face with a dispute. seeing y self as a nosy little basterd i butted right in not know the concquences for my actions... i was harassed and you know i really didnt like it theirs a reason for every thing.. with wishes from a certain some one i did not take actions in to my own hands.. good for me i might have gone to jail i am of that age. lifes looking up i leave for camp in 2 1/2 weeks and then i a gone for about 3 months i might even get to take a road trip to new mexico to go hiking in the moutains... i dk i hope this summer dosent trun in to any thing like last summer. money is pretty scarse and im just sliding by but you knever know i could win the power ball... we all want but never truly can have it FREEDOM........ oh by the way i found an amzing girl that understands me an the funny part about it is that she wants me to go to camp and she is omming to visit thats more then i cn say for some other people......EMILY SMITH!!!&company!!
well got to get some sleep peas out.
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Saturday, April 8th, 2006
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Ok so in recent pasts presents and hopefully futures I will fill you in on all the activates that have befallen me in the past couple of months...... Jake Mehr has gone to Montana and shot guns, rock climbed, snowboarded, hiked around the mountains’, road a train, been beaten up, got to listen to rumors spread about me, lost friends, gained new ones, came across a girl that looked like she need a friend, turned in to more then a friend ship, now im am treated like im an ass I confess I am but not in that since, been cheated on, fallen in love wow what a surprise I give my heart to so many people and it always happen it is stomped and tarnished and what do I do pick it up brush it off and start again. In later new just gimmie 2 more months and then you won’t have to see me for 10 whole weeks I hope the people that have anger against me will stop by then and we can become friends again. Met some one I found out to be just like me but they are even cooler than I am. Found out I really don’t belong. Found out I really only had 4 friends that live by me. Found out that my grandpa is going too moved out of his house and I might have to stay their for while. maybe I wont come home... maybe ill just stay their... then every one gets what they want... me to be gone.... found out that even though being 18 doesn’t make any difference at home I still have a tazer collar around my balls by my parents. Love sucks, life sucks, I suck and they only thing that will make things better is if I disappear maybe for good? I DK who would want to miss a little no good for nothing boy..... But on lighter news camp starts in like 2 months so that’s good... im going home again and I can’t wait. I now have 3 illigimate jobs and making a name for my self... I try so hard and end up in the exact place I started ground zero... im starting to have flash backs again and I don’t know what’s triggering it.... I guess my bosses are getting feed up with me doing the tasks they give me in my own way and still getting them done I DK why that’s bad. I still haven't learned completely how to play the guitar but im working on it. To the people I have hurt, insulated, offended, pissed, and lost; im sorry I know that might not change the way you feel but I think it may be a start. I feel bad for the people that I have hurt, but i can't say I didn’t mean it because if I lost your friend ship it must have been for some reason. The truth is im a heartless bastard and u can’t understand how sorry I am for these circumstances. A great person once told me that don’t ever drink the water completely out of the glass but just leave a little water for another time. Sincerlily yours
Jake Mehr
Eagle Scout
Brotherhood member OA
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Sunday, January 29th, 2006
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if this is what it really should feel like when you care to the extent that you can say certin things to some one what is it that stops you. I know it will never be but i still try. i know i can never have you but i still want you. ur all i want at time and the thing that is on my mind. why is it that you cant see that your are the one for me. but i guess love is blind because if you could see then it might be me. but all i can say is you always have a moment of time FOR THE NEXT BEST THING. me!
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Tuesday, January 3rd, 2006
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| Time: | 11:08 pm. |
| Mood: |  awake. | | Music: | all the same. |
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is lust a better soultion then love?
or witch is better lust or love?
I want every one that reads this to acctually put their 2 cents in that would be cool and would have put a con clusion to this question.
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Tuesday, December 13th, 2005
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so im an asshole. lets leave it as that i know it may not seem like that some times but i am i make fun of alot of people and i dont like a lot of people but i still take time out of my day to make them feel like shit. you and i dont care any more so to how this peson concerns if you want it you can have it im done fighting it you want it so badly come take it its all your just so that you can stop it makes me feel like shit mybe this will change it i well never use you cause thats just wrong and im not like that other boy who did... i want my lighter back... hot coc is good raman is good i need to go shoping for xmas. im tired of fighting with people i have alot on my plate and im dealing with it... im tired of not hanging out with my old friends and new ones... i want a life but i also want money..... i have a car..... im board..... BLIZZLE
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Thursday, November 17th, 2005
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Reply to this entry by posting a picture of yourself in the comments, then post this sentence in your own journal.
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Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
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Name:
Age:
Location:
Height:
Weight:
Hair (color nd style):
Eyes:
Piercings/tattoos:
Fetish:
OTHER:
1. Where would we go on dates?
2. Who are three of your favorite bands/artists?
3. Do you drink/smoke??
4. Do you like the beach?
5. If so...would you go with me late at night?
6. Do you like movies? (name your top 3)
7. If so would you stay up and watch them with me all night?
8. If you were to take me out to a movie would we watch the movie?
9. If not what would we be doing?
10. Do you play an instrument?
11. If so...what?
12. Would you call me right after we saw eachother to make sure i made it home alright?
13. Favorite food?
14. Favorite body part?
15. What would you say is the best thing about yourself?
16. Do you have any reps (ie: heartbreaker, player, slut)?
17. Would you give me kisses out of know where?
18. Would you surprise me out of know where?
20. Any secrets?
21. Ever cheated? if so explain.
22. Do you want kids someday?
23 Any other substances you abuse?
25. Are you over your ex bf/gf?
26. Are you seeing someone?
27. Do you like hot sauce?
What Would You do if...
I cried:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I touched your ass:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
I got dumped:
I pissed you off:
I called you too drunk to drive:
What Do You Think Of My...
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manners:
Friends:
Decisions:
Would You...
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Buy me a birthday gift:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Go out at 4am to get me chocolate:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Keep in touch:
Make me a snack:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Makeout with me:
Hold me in times of need:
Ditch me:
Use me:
ask me out:
Date me:
Makeout with me whenever you had the chance
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i found out i was 89.95% sexy ehat u guys get let me know
www.howsexyareu.com/test.php?128470
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Tuesday, September 27th, 2005
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Monday, September 19th, 2005
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ok so this really is not important to any one but i really need to get this out. ok so i had a family and friends and magically a shrink all rolled in to one at camp now that im at home it sucks i have no one who truly understands anything i say or any thing i do. I reaally understand that the world dosent revolve around me and i should be the center of attion. I miss them all i have seen most of them in the last 3 weeks every time they leave i almost cry.... not going to lie im ging to sappy today but i did and it felt weird the song started to play your going to be the one that saves me and i mae mne think of them. I dont knwo who i can turn to with all the problems that i may face. in other news i am a really big dick and i hurt people on a regula basis no one yet but i have been a dick to some one that dosent deserve this person dosent dersive any of the shit that i made them go through and im sorry i dont know how many more times i could have said that. im tired and im sleepy im going to bed...
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Wednesday, September 14th, 2005
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Their was this time when all I could think was you
There was a heart you had stolen mine...
There was a soul for you to eat
Now IM just hopeless and waiting
You said hi and so did I
You were cute and I was heart struck
You were all I could have asked for
Now IM just hopeless and waiting
There was a time and a place
There was that the night was cold but you were not
There was a kiss not just a kiss
Now IM just hopeless and waiting
I was confused
I am confused
My mind is made up
Your may not be
Now IM just hopeless and waiting….
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Wednesday, June 15th, 2005
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so i wanted to say good bye to you all have a good summer and fill em in all the time if you get in to trouble, sex, money, make it rich, get blown up on drugs, jump off roofs or just you know break some thing.
i want to still be involved with your lives but not be their. well have a great summer and comment me i will be cack on her some time druing the summer probly druing the weekend. l8er ~ jake
p.s. im off to camp to teach its a boy scout camp EAGLE SCOUT what what.
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so i droped a china doll today and she shattered all over the floor and it looked so sad its like i crushed it. i was really sad i felt like i did the right thing thought but i also thought i did the wrong thing. i feel so bad i want every thing to be ok but i dk if it will be. i guess that when i leave that it will fix it self in time i hope i will be forgiven. but i know it never will be.
people put cuts on the out side of their body for attention but i feel like i put them on the inside to protect myself from being hurt because the cuts will heal and leave hard scar tissue.
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